Dugaan Ramadhan 1433

bismillah..

this Ramadhan is definitely the most challenging one.. for me at least. alhamdulillah.. a humbling experience indeed. 

my sonshine, Zarief was warded twice..

first it was hfmd.. it was very nasty! the virus itself made Zarief really sick and thin as he had a mouthful of ulcers and dehydration. blisters also appeared on his feet and hands.. we thought it was chicken pox or something but deep down i was worried it was hfmd. my lil cousin had it the last weekend we visited kg.. i didn't realize it was hfmd until my grandma pointed that my lil cousin had dots on her feet and around her mouth. i had series of nightmares that zarief will be infected too.. little that i knew that it really did.. well, as a mummy, i don't wish the virus to infect other kids so we try to keep zarief away from the other children. i think awareness is necessary in which parents should be responsible to mention if their kids have any infectious diseases so that other parents could take preventive measures and not assuming that other kids would't be affected or worse do not even care if other kids are infected.. 

we were discharged on Sunday..there were still ulcers in his mouth but at least he can drink and eat.. i thought that was the end. Zarief will be back on his feet anytime soon..

little that I knew Allah has better plans for us.. on Monday evening, Zarief vomited once and that night he kept on vomiting. On Tuesday, my MIL said he had series of diarrhoea and he vomited still. that night he was feverish. we weren't able to sleep.. on wednesday, he was super weak.. i guess he's dehydrated again. we took a leave and took zarief to kmc again.. and dr sharifah said he was really dehydrated and he had to be admitted again.. we checked in.. while my husband was away to get our stuff at home.. zarief had a really high fever and he was shaking.. his feet and hands were icy cold and all his fingers turned blue. i thought he was cold but in fact his body is burning hot! dr sharifah quickly gave him a paracetamol sup and wait for his body temperature to stabilize before putting on his IV drip.. i was crying the whole time because i have never seen him so helpless and weak. he didn't even fight when the dr. poke his little vein.. i was so scared..he tested positive for rotavirus.. again a nasty virus! he didn't do much except for sleeping and crying when he's awake.. but mostly he was sleeping. he didn't even eat anything, purged and vomited  the whole time, refusing feeding and oral medicine. this morning, he woke up a lot healthier and requesting food! alhamdulillah.. he's a lot better probably because of the IV drip.. he's finishing his 3rd bottle now.. but still no dutch lady formula for him yet because he would purge.. dr suggested pediasure LF but he hated it.. hehehe so we fed him vitagen instead. it contains good bacteria for the intestines.. 

the moment i'm typing this.. i pray that my son will recover soon. I pray that Allah has mercy on him and forgive all my sins if that's the reason my son is ill.. i have to accept all the trials from the Almighty.. insyallah it will us stronger.. amin..

thanks for your kind words and support! May Allah bless us all..

ramadhan 2012

bismillah..

ramadhan is here again. alhamdulillah.. today is 8th ramadhan. so far ramadhan has been wonderful.. fasting more challenging this year as zarief is more active but he's never a burden. in fact seeing him everyday after work makes me stronger and energetic! commuting to work is still a problem and i guess that's my real problem. i am sleepy after sahur and on the way to work i will definitely sleep. and the same goes when i am my way home.. fortunately i travel with my hubs. so he'll do the driving and i'll do the sleeping.. ehehehe.. i get tired very easily now.. haih..

i love you husband.. eh tetibe! ahaha

anyway, the lil bebe kicks very frequently and i love it! a few nights ago, zarief  put his leg on my tummy while he was sleeping.. yeah freestyle sleeping! so the lil bebe kicked my tummy hard as in communicating with zarief. but zarief didn't even move nor awaken.. ahaha

ok.. gtg! see u later alligator!

Bismillah..

I went for the routine check up yesterday evening.. i was excited to see the lil bun.. alhamdulillah lill bebe is just fine and healthy too!!

i asked Dr. Ngee for the gender again because he said last 3 weeks the lil bebe might be a girl..  so the dr scanned and he said in the jolly good tone

" See the bird?"

Well, frankly it was a little blurry as it is black and white but I did see something pointing up so that might probably be the 'bird'.. teheee =)

anyhoo, mummy and daddy are both excited as Zarief is going to have a lil brother!! Alhamdulillah!

Allah knows best.. so far let mummy be the only woman in their heart.

See you lil bebe! Keep on kicking!

21 months old zarief

bismillah..

zarief is growing up really fast.. i was browsing through his baby pictures and watching his baby videos when i realized that he's almost 2 years old!

how time flies.. having him is super wonderful. i miss him when he's not around..

his milestones so far:
1) pro jogger- he loves jogging.. hehehe he jogs everywhere even in the malls. usually daddy will do the catching up so i still find zarief jogging funny whilst daddy didn't.. hehe
2) he has wider vocabularies- he express what he wants in string of short sentences now. if he wants to open a packet of biscuit he'd say: "mi ka cat.." (read: mummy buka sat) hihihi it's so cute with his facial expression and tone that it's almost impossible to resist.. oh he also says thank you "ti chiu mi"
3) he loves playground- he isn't really good in socializing with kids so he would sit and watch them play.. but i think it's safer because the kids play really rough at the playground cutting ques. at least he had some fun watching..
4) he loves my drink and food- when we eat out, i would have to consider what zarief likes too because he'll say 'nanak' to my food and drink.. so i have to mellow down the spiciness of the dishes. i would go for chinese fried rice or carbonara pasta..
5) he knows how to tickle- he tickels me and daddy under the arms because i always tickel him and made him laugh. he uses his tickling skills as an escapiscm sometimes especially when he is about to be scolded by daddy or mummy.. cheeky boy!
6) he loves to go to masjid- he insisted to go inside the masjid and pray. he'll point out every masjid we found along the way and he insisted that we stop and pray.. i hope the love for masjid and prayers continues forever. amin
7) he's very alert to prayers- i always put on the zikir cd during our car ride he'll zikir together and when there's prayers he quickly raise his hands and pray and he'll ask everybody in the car to do the same..even the driver..
8) he loves vehicles like the lorries, busses, trucks, tractors, excavators etc..
9) he loves watching elmo and upinipin.. well who doesn't rite? hehe


i think there's more.. hehehe zarief you are my sunshine! i love you son! Mummy prays that Allah will protect you from harm and people who doesn't love you or kids and Allah will grace you iman, health, wealth, happiness and love. Mummy hopes that you'll be a good brother too..

alhamdulillah Ya Rabb for lending me Zarief to love to care and to nurture.

let's talk pregnancy.. pt1

bismillah..

i am always like this.. i bloghopped here and there and suddenly i have tonnes of things to be written..

i read about confinement sets and whatnot.. are they really necessary?

for zarief i used Salindah.. i couldn't really tell the effects though because i skipped the pills many times. and i have this stigma that homeopathy doesn't really work on me.. oh but the little bottle of iodin (is it?) was wonderful for epi wound.

most that i encountered promoted shaklee as the supplements..

i wanted to try traditional jamu and such but then it will not be good for breastfeeding babies. and insyallah I will try to continue breastfeeding.

ok research time!

toodles!

baby kicks..

bismillah..

mummy is now nearing 20 weeks of gestation. halfway through the pregancy journey..

i haven't really noted about the second bebe due to time constraint.. or excuses much? ahahaha but fret no baby, my love for you is plenty! well let's start since the beginning..

11/3/2012 -Mummy's first +ve pregnancy test.. Just like the first one, i could not believe my eyes when the second line appeared! My eyes went blurry or something like that. happy and anxious at the same time..

13/3/2012 -Mummy's second +ve pregnancy test.. Just to make sure.. ehehehe i had an extra UPT kit anyways.. Joy and joy and joy

19/3/2012 -Mummy's first trip to INS.. Dr said the pregancy was still in the beginning as no heartbeat was heard but there was a tiny dot in the uterus..

9/4/2012 -2nd trip to the clinic. heard baby's heartbeat loud and clear. it was like a tiny galloping horsey! alhamdulillah..

mummy then enjoyed the pregnancy till now.. mummy's expected due date will be on November 16th.. unlike the first pregnancy, mummy had morning sickness and i am hungry at all times.. hehehe i could already feel baby's movements like a little fish swimming inside the tummy!

all in all, alhamdulillah for the rezeki! i'm glad to have you darling.. be it a boy or a girl.. mummy loves you so much!!

hey shorty, it's your birthday!

bismillah hi walhamdulillah..

alhamdulillah ya Rabb.. i am 29 years old.. that means another year to go before i hit the big 30..

*hyperventilating*

anyways, i am always grateful to Allah for giving me life, health, success, wealth, love and happiness.. and also i'm forever indebted my mum for birthing me and i owe a big one to my parents for raising me up.

this year Allah has given me a birthday gift that is really precious.. i'm carrying a little one inside me and i'm in my 17 weeks of pregnancy! alhamdullilah.

i pray that i'll forever be given guidance from Allah and may Allah bless my family always.

thanks Allah for another year of life. I'll use it to the fullest.. Insya Allah.

boundaries..

some people just don't get it. please respect that i am a mother to my son.

so i don't really appreciate it if you were trying to be his mother. i worked during the day so let me be the mother at night. i'm pissed. freaking pissed.

if i didn't consider certain things in mind.. i would never let u touch my son.

respect the boundaries please.

hello income tax!

i'm a grown up responsible citizen now.

because this year i am a tax payer.

wohoo! =)

8 weeks and counting..

yesterday was awesome..

i heard the heartbeat of the little tiny baby inside. alhamdulilah. that was really wonderful. sometimes i forgot that i'm expecting but i have to be extra careful.

i love my pregnancy routines. i pray that i'll be blessed with extra energy to complete them. the first thing that i will do is to avoid unnecessary pressure.

i pray that Allah protects the little baby inside and i pray that Allah will extend his rezeki to all my friends who are waiting for the rezeki to come. Insya Allah.

=)

i never thought that...

i was craving for LAKSA TELUK KUCHAI!

i was never a fan of laksa but yesterday it was totally different!

hubs brought us to Kuala Kedah because he was craving for that laksa. upon reaching the laksa place, i looked at a lady who was slurping her laksa.. i salivated almost instantly.. hubs ordered 2 plates of laksa for us..

i couldn't believe the taste of the laksa broth.

it was perfect to my tastebud! it was like something that i craved for all these while.

i don't like the muddled broth but the clear one is TO DIE FOR!

definitely made me smile and made my day.

i'm now one happy lady!

not in the mood.. pftt

greetings..

i am not really in the mood of doing anything. i'm tired of travelling to and fro work. i'm tired of work.

weekends were great though.

bismillah..

nikmatnya bila beribadah rasa indah.

=)

burnout.

greetings.. there are so many things going on. college events, exam papers to mark, questions to prepare, classes to enter, commuting to-fro work they are never ending.

i need to get away from all this madness.

i need to find solace.. working on it still.. hopefully the lil baby isn't tensed like mummy.. i'm sorry baby..

ok gtg.

mid semester break..

greetings..

what a bliss.. waking up in the morning and watching zarief sleeps.. and not rushing to work!

i wish holidays were forever.. but then i'll be unemployed.. so i wish that holidays were more frequent..

zarief is 17mos.. he's a funny little guy. i love talking to him!!

M: zarief minum apa tu?

Z: cucu.. (read:susu)

M: sedap x?

Z: dapp (read: sedap)

M: Sapa bancuh?

Z: memii (read:mummy)

isn't he adorable?

he's getting heavier and heavier.. the last time we weighed him, he was 13.5kg.. teheee.. his milk is more diluted now. 7 oz of water and 3 scoops of milk. he feeds a lot anyways..as he do not really eat much. ok gtg he's requesting breakfast.. see u!

just the two of us~*

assalamualaikum..

it has been a long while since i had 'mummy and son' long weekend.. hubs is away to USM.. i took zarief home and it was the two of us. =)

it was awesome! despite the fact that i stayed indoor a lot more than out.. we spent our time together. we laid around and i got to watch tv with zarief climbing on my back. and he was so clingy and i loved it.

it feels that i had him for myself 24-7 which happens very rarely.

yes. i'm crazy that way. and possesive too.. haha

good news everywhere..

greetings..

how's your day so far? i'm still in the office waiting for my husband. today has been great. alhamdulillah.. poor zarief because mummy and abah are late. he must be wondering why we haven't arrived.. soon sayang..

well, i heard many good news so far. what excites me now is the news about pregnancy. and most of them were preggers when i was pregnant with zarief. heheh no pressure though. despite the fact that i really want to conceive, i can only pray and try harder. Allah knows best. Allah is fair. Maybe the rezeki will come soon. I pray that all the pregnant ladies will enjoy their pregnancy and everything will be smoothsailing. Insya Allah..

Back to me.. i'm supposed to do somethin important just now but i got distracted when i blog hopped. almost buy a maxi dress online.. but got distracted with something else.. tiheee =D..
i felt a lot happier now and calmer. i wish that this feeling will last forever. husband will be leaving for his USM Intensive Course this Sunday and he'll be gone and busy for almost 2 weeks leaving me in charge of Zarief and MIL. Hopefully Allah will ease everything.. Must be tough for Zarief.. he will miss his dad mucho but there's always phone..

ok gtg.. husband's done at school. I can't wait to cuddle zarief..

i'm down..

greetings..

i don't know what is happening to me.
i'm depressed and down. i'm exhausted. but why?

being physically, mentally and emotionally drained is like not living. i drive to work, work, i drive home. i lost interest. probably i should go treat myself a massage. my back and shoulders hurt. i seriously do not know what i want.

I NEED TO VENT!

hypocrite..

greetings..

i'm writing out of frustration and anger..
i just do not get it.. why ask in the first place if you're not going to give?
sometimes the big shots or the elder ones need to understand the minions. sometimes it's just take common sense and a little compassion.. i'm sorry for the broken hearts and crushed feelings. i'm crushed too to see you crushed. all we can do now is pray that Allah will compensate our sadness with something happiness.. Insyaallah.

random thoughts..

greetings..

how's your day? mine so far seems fine. i read something that triggers me to write.. it's about the upsi student who was suspended for three semesters because of the flag/banner/poster incident.

my verdict:

I believe that everything should be in moderation. i guess for a university student to sacrifice his future for his political belief is too much. i understood that some people have strong political favours and it's not wrong. not knowing our place and our role in life is wrong. a student should focus on his/her studies. that's is the main responsibility besides participating in co-curricular activities/association. another responsibility is to God, Allah Almighty.

Political involvement should happen later when you at least have a stable income. I blame not only the students for not knowing their priorities but i blame the society and the political groups for inducing the desire to set aside their focus and introduce the fallacy of protecting nation bullshit. are we going to be responsible if these fanatics were not able to graduate with good result and hence unemployed? think about their parents.. think about the future of the country.

If these irresponsible students are serenaded now as HEROES, i'm afraid our country will be filled of these political fanatics and other race will thrive. leaving us the Malays in the guts again because our youngsters are too concern of nation's political well being rather than their own future. i pray that these students will realize their place and focus on their studies. i'm an educator and it's painful for me to see the poor youngsters are manipulated by irresponsible parties. their time in politics will come but not during studying years..

just my two cents..

2011 recap..

assalamualaikum..

2012 has finally arrived. alhamdulillah i'm still alive.

1. agreed to sign the sbpa. i'm going to retire at 60! hehe may Allah grant me health to continue working.
2. hubs was transferred to sk bukit tampoi which is 5 minutes from college. we're still commuting sg. limau-kuala nerang though. good things are that i don't have to drive in the morning and i get to spend more quality time with him.
3. i'm trying to be more organized in life.. for a start, i need to work on my work. since working hours are shorten as i have to leave school by 1.00 on several days, i have to plan what to teach before hand.. i'll try to pull this together slow and steady.
4. zarief is always so fun to be with! =) i wish that he could talk so that i could have conversations with him.. i'll wait for the days to come. he has 6 teeth.. 4 upper jaw, 2 lower. he was warded once due to high fever.. i pity him to endure such pain at his age but he's back on his 2 feet now. oh he had flu and cried last night because his nose was blocked.
5. i finally bought the replacement rings.. cost me a bomb! i was so sad that they went missing but i never stop praying that i'll find them one day..
6. managed to take the family for a holiday in langkawi.. will definitely return for another holiday!
7. 
welcome 2012!