Dugaan Ramadhan 1433

bismillah..

this Ramadhan is definitely the most challenging one.. for me at least. alhamdulillah.. a humbling experience indeed. 

my sonshine, Zarief was warded twice..

first it was hfmd.. it was very nasty! the virus itself made Zarief really sick and thin as he had a mouthful of ulcers and dehydration. blisters also appeared on his feet and hands.. we thought it was chicken pox or something but deep down i was worried it was hfmd. my lil cousin had it the last weekend we visited kg.. i didn't realize it was hfmd until my grandma pointed that my lil cousin had dots on her feet and around her mouth. i had series of nightmares that zarief will be infected too.. little that i knew that it really did.. well, as a mummy, i don't wish the virus to infect other kids so we try to keep zarief away from the other children. i think awareness is necessary in which parents should be responsible to mention if their kids have any infectious diseases so that other parents could take preventive measures and not assuming that other kids would't be affected or worse do not even care if other kids are infected.. 

we were discharged on Sunday..there were still ulcers in his mouth but at least he can drink and eat.. i thought that was the end. Zarief will be back on his feet anytime soon..

little that I knew Allah has better plans for us.. on Monday evening, Zarief vomited once and that night he kept on vomiting. On Tuesday, my MIL said he had series of diarrhoea and he vomited still. that night he was feverish. we weren't able to sleep.. on wednesday, he was super weak.. i guess he's dehydrated again. we took a leave and took zarief to kmc again.. and dr sharifah said he was really dehydrated and he had to be admitted again.. we checked in.. while my husband was away to get our stuff at home.. zarief had a really high fever and he was shaking.. his feet and hands were icy cold and all his fingers turned blue. i thought he was cold but in fact his body is burning hot! dr sharifah quickly gave him a paracetamol sup and wait for his body temperature to stabilize before putting on his IV drip.. i was crying the whole time because i have never seen him so helpless and weak. he didn't even fight when the dr. poke his little vein.. i was so scared..he tested positive for rotavirus.. again a nasty virus! he didn't do much except for sleeping and crying when he's awake.. but mostly he was sleeping. he didn't even eat anything, purged and vomited  the whole time, refusing feeding and oral medicine. this morning, he woke up a lot healthier and requesting food! alhamdulillah.. he's a lot better probably because of the IV drip.. he's finishing his 3rd bottle now.. but still no dutch lady formula for him yet because he would purge.. dr suggested pediasure LF but he hated it.. hehehe so we fed him vitagen instead. it contains good bacteria for the intestines.. 

the moment i'm typing this.. i pray that my son will recover soon. I pray that Allah has mercy on him and forgive all my sins if that's the reason my son is ill.. i have to accept all the trials from the Almighty.. insyallah it will us stronger.. amin..

thanks for your kind words and support! May Allah bless us all..